It has been 3 weeks now since the death of my husband. Someone said, Time heals all wounds. I'm not sure I agree. Time may soften wounds, but I don't know that a wound this deep will ever heal. It has been said that tears are the price we pay for the love we enjoy in this life. I guess when we love someone a lot, we hurt a lot when they are gone.

Our family has had many ups and downs during these several weeks. Probably more downs than ups, but I guess that is to be expected. My heart breaks for my children. Little Ben was talking to someone and said, "You know I don't have a Dad." Today Ben said that we have a new "D" word and it isn't "damn", it is Dad. He said it makes him sad to talk about his dad so we should call it the "D" word. Little Lizzy touches her fingers to my mouth when I try to talk about her Dad, because it hurts her to talk about him. I feel the pain of all my children and wish that I could fix this for them. That's what their Dad used to do. Every time I had a problem, or not even a problem, I just wanted to "vent" to him, he would have my problem figured out and fixed.

We miss him so much!

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It's amazing how fast life can change. One moment you are on vacation with your family and the next moment your life changes forever. That's what happened to our family on August 25, 2008. That is the day my best friend, and wonderful companion left this mortal life. It is so hard to lose someone you love so much. My heart aches with grief and pain to be without this extraordinary person. I have never imagined grief like I am experiencing. I was told by a wise person that if we had an ordinary husband or an ordinary father this wouldn't be as hard for us. Because we had one of the great fathers and great husbands our pain is much larger. What a blessing it is and was to have such a great husband and great father. We feel a larger pain because my children's dad and my husband was extraordinary.



His life was one of service and example. He blessed the lives of others with his unconditional love, thoughtfulness, kindness, loyalty, honesty, and fun sense of humor. What he did will live on in the many lives he touched.



We miss him dearly, but find comfort in our knowledge that we will live with him again.

Then

Steve's Obituary--------------------------------------------------------------------------------Stephen Wayne BrownStephen Wayne Brown 7/15/1958 ~ 8/25/2008 Stephen Wayne Brown, beloved husband, father, brother and son passed away suddenly Monday, August 25, 2008 of a heart attack at home. Steve was the first child born to Janet Pehrson and Wayne C. Brown in Salt Lake City, Utah.He was an active and faithful member of the LDS Church in which he served in many capacities. He served as a faithful missionary in the Anchorage, Alaska mission, was a bishop in the Mueller Park 5th Ward, and was currently serving as a member of the Bishopric of the University 13th Singles Ward. His energy and testimony blessed the lives of many, but particularly the youth he served. Steve graduated from the Olympus High class of '76 and later the University of Utah with a BS in communications. He was also a member of the Crimson Club. He was a partner at the Summit Group since 1986, President of the firm, and instrumental in the firm's growth to the largest locally owned communications firm in the state of Utah. He had a great sense of honesty and gave the truth whether you liked it or not. Many people came to work at the Summit Group because of their interactions with Steve. His personality was instrumental in the companies' growth. He was married for time and all eternity in the Salt Lake Temple to Cindy Fagg on June 20, 1986. Steve loved hunting, fishing, camping and the "Runnin' Utes." But his greatest accomplishment and love was his wife and children, whom he served with all his heart. The most enjoyable part of his life was spent attending his kids games, concerts, and recitals. He was their coach, cheerleader and friend. He is survived by his parents, Janet and Wayne Brown; his wife, Cindy who he loved dearly and his children: Meagan, Sarah, Katelyn, Michael, Elizabeth and Benjamin; also his siblings, Jeffery (Chantal) Brown, Michelle (Joe) Hanna, Jennifer (Scott) Brown, Leslie (Brian) Paul; father and mother-in-law, Don and Lavell Fagg; and many nieces, nephews, and friends. Preceded in death by grandparents, Paul E. and Ruth Pehrson, Emeral and Clara Brown. Funeral services will be held at 12 noon, Fri., August 29, 2008 at the Mueller Park Stake Center, 1800 E. Mueller Park Road (1800 South), Bountiful. Friends and family may call Thursday evening from 6-8 p.m. at Russon Brothers Bountiful Mortuary, 295 N. Main and Fri. morning 10:30-11:30 a.m. at the church prior to services. Interment-Salt Lake City Cemetery. Online guestbook at www.russonmortuary.com

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